We work and play all day - evening comes we read then sleep and rest our night away. We wake - we dress - we eat - we leave, we start it all again. We set sail anew in the river of life and round another bend. On a river we've never sailed before each turn brings something new. It's that discovery, that surprise, that keeps us pulling through.
I'm a fortunate man, born to two people who loved each other very much. I was surrounded with brothers and sisters and lots of love and support. Now I'm just trying to do the best job I can by loving the woman I chose (and who chose me) and the two children that we were blessed to have. Your mom, Joanna and you mean the world to me and I try to do the right thing for you every moment, every day of my life. What is "the right thing?" Well, besides money, a roof over your head, clothes on your back and food in your belly, I'm trying to help you make the right choices for yourself and help prepare you for the road ahead. I can help you as much as you'll let me. I can give but I cannot make you accept my offering. That's all you Theo. Own your dreams. Pick up the ball and run with it. I love you so much!
I'm sorry I lost my temper yesterday in the car. When one person starts yelling it's hard to not yell back. It's hard - but it's important to try anyway. Just because it's hard doesn't mean you can't do it - it's just harder that's all. Anyway, I'm sorry and I'll try not to let it happen again. It would be easier to not yell back though if you didn't yell at me in the first place! Maybe you could try harder and see if you can't think of a nicer way to express yourself too! I think we all would be happier! It was fun watching the Super Bowl with you, mom and Theo last night. Even if the Cowboys won! Have fun today!
For fifteen and a half years I've held a special place in your life - in your heart. You've certainly held a special place in mine. I try to show my love for you everyday and I hope you've caught just a hint of it from time to time. I know that someday, maybe soon, other men will come and earn your heart, at least a place in it. And while your love for him may feel complete - I hope there will always be room for Dad. I love you so much!
Happy Valentines Day.
Seems like a lot to do going down the road of seventh grade. Lots to study. Lots to learn, lots to play, lots to learn, lots of friends, lots of plans, lots to learn... We learn so much from our friends. We learn so much from our friends. It's so important that we choose good friends. You have many good friends I know. And you yourself are a good friend to many others - it works both ways. When I was growing up I was lucky to have so many good friends among my own brothers and sisters. Listen to your friends OK. Be a good friend. Grow and learn to love!
The trees on Rugby silohette starkly against the brightening morning sky as Sunny and I round the corner. The image clears my head and I think of my sister Marcia - like I have been every morning since she died last August. Sisters are special creatures and you and I are both lucky to have at least one. Marcia was - and still is as far as I'm concerned - the oldest of my family of siblings. No one can ever knock her off that perch. Joanna will always be your older sib - pace setter - life example - fierce champion - strong ally (sp? God I'm a horrible speller) - helping hand - voice of reason - and more and more and more still. Love her and listen to her and try to be all those things in return.
Good morning. Whenever there's a lot on the line, the challenge for the player is to relax and play loose. The natural tendency is to tighten up and feel nervous, which makes it harder to do your best. It's like walking on a curb without falling off is easy. But put that curb 100 ft. in the air and you'd never go near it. I don't have any magic way to help you relax in this stressful year. But maybe just remembering to play loose, thinking about it from time to time, will help you achieve some measure of success. It's not easy I know. But it's important to try. So be calm, relax and play loose Joanna! And remember that I love you!
When I was growing up, there were times when I felt overwhelmed - that things were just too difficult to deal with. At times like that the easy, natural thing to want to do is to just forget about them, not do them, and just take the attitude that if I don't deal with the hard things they will some how just go away. I learned that doesn't work. Avoiding the hard stuff doesn't make it go away. The bad stuff hangs around getting worse instead of better until you decide to deal with it. It's not that you'll be able to solve perfectly every problem you face, but rather that nothing has a chance to be solved until you first decide to face it. Ignoring work, ignoring problems does not solve them. I know because I've tried too!
You know, every morning I read stories in the paper that make me cry. Stories of whole countries full of people being murdered or starved or washed away in floods or dying of diseases. So many people suffering in the world today, while we talk about sports and colleges and new clothes. I'm guilty of blocking it all out as much as anyone else is. It's hard to live your life crying for the whole world. At the same time it's important to understand how fortunate and blessed we are as a country as a people as a family. How many talented people in the world never get a chance to work hard at their dream? I love you!
What a dumping yesterday hunh? Everything is smoothed and rounded and waist-deep white. Now, in the morning light, the snow is gray blue with a hint of lavender - beautiful. People can dump on people sometimes, rounding out their features, burying their unique light in a glob of anger and frustration. People can be supportive and illuminating of other people as well, bringing their specialness out into focus with the light of love. We build up; we tear down; we do both. I guess one goal for ourselves could be that we try always to build up more than we tear down. To illuminate and support more than we bury and crush. A worthy goal.
Today is the one month anniversary of the attack on the World Trade Towers. One month is not a very long time in the big scheme of things but it still seems like it happened a million years ago. So much of our lives have changed in so many ways in such a short time. Not just for us personally but for the whole country. It's a time to rebuild, a time to examine ourselves - all of us - to see who we are - what do we do to make the world a better place? What do we do to spread love within our family, with our friends, with strangers we meet on the street, with people who feel and act differently than we feel or act? It would be a mistake to believe that we, as individuals, can do nothing to change the world. Believe in the power of love!
Today is why we study history Theo. To remember. To learn. To teach. To not repeat the mistakes. To honor the innocent who suffered and to vow never to repeat or allow to repeat these sins. You were only a 10 year old boy when the Trade Towers fell, but try to hold onto the memory. I left my office and went to BC and picked up you and Joanna and brought you home. We watched TV in the living room at the Ansonia and we cried. I called my mother and brothers and sisters to let them know we were all OK, but our world has been and will always be changed. Go on in your life Theo. Be the best you can be and make the world the best it can be as well. It's our duty to ourselves, our world, our God. Amen! I love you!
"Movin' on up!" Headin' on out! We celebrate the changes in our lives as we downshift and ease into the stream of whatever "next step" awaits us. There's a lot to celebrate - a lot of success - maybe some missed opportunities and second guess in the mix, but all-in-all a steady progress to this point. Not a point as in a pinnacle, but a point along a line, a path, the steady climb you've been on for almost 18 years now. I'm proud of the young man you're becoming and I'm excited by the future man you'll become as you live and celebrate many, many more "points" in the future. I love you so much!